The Things We will Never Do

Here's a list of things the two of us will never do:

1. Eat weird food 

2. Go on a road trip here or in the US

3. Cook southern fried chicken and eggplant parm

4. Write and edit a book loosely based on your wild life story

5. Dive and enjoy the beach

6. Have a John Cusack movie marathon.
7. Recap watching Game of Thrones or Girls.

8. Bake choco chip cookies or macarons together

9 Go stargazing

10. Have a dog named Ulrich or Gunther
11. Meet the Cardinal of New York to claim he's your long-lost uncle

12. Dress up as Lloyd Dobler and Diane Court in "Say Anything..." for Halloween
13. Kiss, fall in love and have beautiful kids

These things will never happen because you are never going to be that person I had hoped you would be. And it's okay... eventually I will get over this as well as you apparently have. It just hurts now. Moreso because I placed so much hope that the first person I had such a strong connection with would feel the same way too. I know you didn't really promise me anything concrete and that time you were briefly considering us, it was probably more because you liked the idea of escaping to paradise. And you were hurting then and you wanted to go back to the easy banter we had so you can forget her. Her with the insensitive ways and quick judgements. I can't believe you would choose her again. All this time I was hoping that the friendship we had would finally change into this relationship. Are you in the least remorseful we will never do the things on that list? Of course not. You haven't a effing clue, do you? You think you can have her and then go back to me when it falls apart, is that it? I don't even know if I would let you. I shouldn't. But you never promised me anything and you never did know I was half in love with you all this time. I've been waiting for you to just say it and act on your long ago promise of visiting me. Perhaps I should put more stock on what I said before... Things will just fall into place. Who knows? We may even meet one day and see the stars, at least.